Somehow I could suffer the indignity of weighing almost 300 lbs, but the thought of being turned away from a ride for being too large to fit in it safely, well, that was one step too far.
When our children were big enough to start trying kiddie rides, I ceded ride-buddy duties to my husband on almost all of them because he could fit. Me? Maybe, maybe not. I know I didn't want to get to the head of the line to find out.
Below left is a picture of me in June 2010, three months before I rejoined Weight Watchers (click for a bigger version). It was proof of the rare ride I went on, I knew I could fit in that turtle, and I did - just barely. I remember that drop-bar was diggin' in pretty hard, but I made it work.
Anyway, cut to last week, on the right. It was a world of difference, knowing I could fit in any ride I so chose. I could wait in line, without anxiety. If the kids wanted to go on a ride, I could go, too.
Later that day I was relishing sitting on a bench while the kids frolicked around a splash pad. A woman came and sat next to me. We exchanged "Hi, thank God, a bench"-es and I noticed she resembled me physically two years ago.
Her husband came over and they started a discussion about who was going on what ride next and she flat-out said, "I won't fit on them." She laughed it off, but I knew it was a front. (I swear I wasn't trying to snoop, but she was sitting right next to me.)
I knew that laugh. I knew what lies beneath. I'm glad it's in the past.
I've written it before and I will write it again: You encounter more victories off the scale than on it. This is one of those.
You are an inspiration as I start my journey. I sit here drinking water and thinking about a very embarrassing situation I encountered while at Six Flags in Gurnee, IL. It started with waiting in line for an hour at "Batman-The Ride" and ended with me not being able to fit on the ride--and taking the walk of shame to the concourse and watching my 10 year old child go on the ride himself.
ReplyDeleteI know the feeling of wanting to do things with my son and physically not being able to...I also lots 100+ pounds (5 years ago) and put it all the weight back on after I married.
I've felt like a failure for so long. But I need to lose this weight again for me. I felt so much better when I was thinner...both physically and mentally.
I hope to read more about your victories. You inspire me!
Carol